Monday Weigh In

Well I ran and in addition to working out 5 days this week and only lost one frigging pound. This really pisses me off because I am trying to do right but it seems like my body is so slow to respond. I can’t lie and say that I did not slip up and eat things there were not apart of my meal plan, but damn it should not be enough to hold up the progress. Okay … Through out the week I ate a ½ of a piece of bacon, a handful of sunflower seeds, a ½ cup of generic cheez-its, drank 2 diet Pepsis and 1 regular Pepsi. Now, it’s not like I ate this stuff everyday, just a lil here and there.

95% of the time I ate chicken, veggies, yogurt, special k cereal, slim fast , cottage cheese and protein bars. Is my body so attached to fat that a ½ of a piece of bacon will make it hold on to the fat?…………Really. I’m sorry but I can not eat good 100% of the time everyday. My trainer says that I have to go cold turkey and stop eating things that are bad for my body. He says my cravings are too bad and once I start giving in I will find myself giving in more often.

Okay I can believe that to a certain extent. However, it’s not realistic people should be able to enjoy anything with moderation. I understand I am trying to lose 80lbs and moderation may not be in my vocabulary right now………..but damn can I get a break sometimes.

To make matters worse I went to the doctor and she would not take me off the high blood pressure medicine. My blood pressure dropped 40 points but she says it’s still a bit high. I get so frustrated sometimes; this weight just seems to come off so slow. It steals my motivation. Well I guess I have to push pass this and keep trying.

So as of today I am at 209lbs. I am trying to be at 184 by Aug 30th, 2009

Weigh In

Sorry that I could not make a post on Monday. I was extremely busy. Well let me tell you the story. My scale at home says I lost 2lbs.... my trainer scale says I stayed the same (212lbs). He says his scale is the the only one that counts, I say bullshit! First of all I weigh myself naked at home and at the gym they require me to wear clothes (lol), secondly my scale has been consistent with his scale until yesterday. I'm going to believe my scale... because I have been busting my butt too hard to maintain. I'm not even going to mention that my cycle started and I could be retaining water. I honestly believe I lost those two pounds.......that is my story and I am sticking to it.

My goal is to weigh in at 207 by next Monday. I know it is a stretch but I want to at least try. If I believe my scale it will only be a three pound weight loss and I can do that. To help me reach this goal I jog/fast walk 1.5 miles after my workout. If this goes well I will incorporate it into my workout permanently.

My trainer wants me and Brittany to workout at night too! But I do not have time or energy at night to work out. I work the middle shift 10:30a-7:00p and by the time I get home it's 8 o'clock at night. I can't fit that workout in my night. I get up a 5:00am to go train at 6:00am. I need at least 7 hours of sleep to have energy for the next day, So I thought the additional walk in the morning would be perfect.

BTW cousin Brittany lost 4lbs this week. Whoo Hoo........... Get it Girl!

Hey Family and Friends,

Yesterday I heard that Southwest will be requiring people too large to fit in one seat to purchase two seats. This policy is a bit discriminating to me….no it’s not because I’m a bit overweight that I feel this way. But for many people being overweight is like a disease, everyone is not fat because they can’t push away from the plate.

America is battling the fat attack. We are one of the fattest countries in the world, yet we create rules and ad campaigns that go against what we really are. Plus, when I fly on Southwest I expect a crappy flight. I’ve never been on one of their planes and had an excellent experience. Hell at my full weight of 224lbs I barely had room to fit comfortably in the seats on a Southwest plane. They have everyone crammed in the plane like sardines.

This police sucks and I do not agree with it. I know that it may be uncomfortable for some but if you are paying 49.00 to fly to Denver who cares if you have to seat next to a fat lady. If you wanted to fly in comfort you should’ve flew on American…Delta…Jet Blue… or caught the train.

BTW I missed two days of training this week. I hope this does not affect my weigh in on Monday. I do not want to hear the trainer bitching at me for not showing up. I had to work a different shift on Thursday and today…..well I just did not feel like getting up at 5:00am to workout. I felt bad the entire morning. Not to mention Brittany didn’t work out either. Sometimes I get lazy and have to snap myself out of the lazy spell. Well it’s back on and cracking tomorrow.

Monday Weigh –In

I’m feeling pretty proud to report that I lost 3 pounds! Hooray (doing the happy dance). I can’t lie I did eat Easter dinner with the rest of my family; I just kept my portions in check. Now that was harrrrrrrrd to do, my Auntie Linda makes the bomb mac and cheese and only getting a lil bit of it made me depressed. I had to keep telling myself to stay away from the kitchen. OH and I ate 2 cupcakes this weekend too! I’m about to start my cycle and during that time of the month bayyyyyyyybe I gots to have me some chocolate and lots of sugar. This time I gotta watch it because it can throw me off my game and cause me to remain stagnant. Also must watch my sodium intake while I’m cycling… I will retain water like pool if I don’t. So no more cupcakes this week…..please…pray for a sista!!


Well I’m not the only person that lost weight meet my partner in fight the pounds…Cousin Brittney. Isn’t sooo cute! Brittany lost two pounds…she ate cupcakes too! But all in all we did good. Our trainer took three days off so we made a decision to workout anyway. So Saturday and Easter Sunday before dinner we hit the track and did jump-in-jacks and walked about 1.5 miles. I’m not gonna beat myself up and say. “You could’ve lost more if you did not eat those darn cupcakes.” While that may be true I am happy that I was active and showed some signs of improvement in the moderation department. Trust and believe about a month ago I would’ve ate more like 4-5 cupcakes.











Here is what I ate today

Breakfast

1/2c. Cottage Cheese with blackberries:

2 slices of Sarah Lee 45 calorie whole wheat bread:

2.5tsp of I can’t believe it’s not butter


Snack 1

1 pear and a 90 calorie granola bar

Snack 2

Another pear and 100 calorie pack crasins

Lunch

Spinach Salad w/ Chicken breast, avocado and tomatoes

Snack 3

1 red grape fruit and another 90 calorie granola bar



Snack 4

80 calorie light and fit yogurt

Dinner

Slim Fast Shake
1 Special K protein bar


This may seem like a lot of food but remember that I eat every 2-3 hours to keep the metabolism going strong. I may have ate too many granola bars today so I will make sure not to do that tomorrow.

Starting is Half the Battle

I find that now that I am working out in the morning getting the proper rest is very important. When I was young operating on 4 hours of sleep was fine but at 33 a full 7-8 of sleep is mandatory.


I want to share with you a picture that got me thinking it was time to do something about my weight (see pic below) I purchased the dress from Target (Tarjay) and I thought it would be fierce, especially since it came in a size 22. I already had a girdle at home so I figured this would be a perfect dress to wear to my company's holiday bash. I picked up a few accessories and I thought I was fierce. That was until I saw the damn pictures. I damn near fell out of my chair, "Is that me?" I asked myself. I thought I was looking good and I was looking like a ripe apple. Seriously, my stomach was looking bloated....even the girdle could not contain all the gut. Then there was my ham hock arms. Don't get me wrong I was looking....okay, but not how I thought I should look. After seeing that pic I was starting to get a bit disappointed in myself. If you think I have low self esteem then you would be wrong. I love myself...I love myself so much that I want to take control of my life. It also doesn't help that I was 140lbs less than five years ago, so sitting at 215lbs is not sitting well with me.






Activities

Did Cardio for 45 minutes


Nutrients

Breakfast:

½ C of cottage cheese w/black berries on top
2 slices of whole wheat toast (Sarah Lees 45 cal per slice)
2.5 tsp of I can’t believe it’s not butter

½ C of Cherry Pepsi (giving it slowly)

Snacks
1 Special K protein Bar

1 cup of yogurt

1 pear

1 granola bar


Lunch

2.5 cups of spinach salad that included grilled chicken breast, 1 tomato and one avocado

3 tsp of Italian salad dressing


Dinner


1 Slim Fast: Meal on the go

1 grapefruit

I eat something every 2-3 hours. Your body has to know when to expect food or it will hold on to calories because it does not know when the next meal is coming. So regulating your eating schedule helps speed up your metabolism. But eating a lot of veggies gives me gas. I’m told that that is a good thing so I’ll keep air freshener in my cubicle.


As of today I still feel strongly about losing this weight and emotionally I think I may be ready.

Drawing Battle Lines

I created this blog to document my weight loss journey. I've been talking about losing weight for awhile but was all talk and no game. When my doctor told me that my blood pressure had gotten so high that she needed to place me on medication I damn near cried. That is when I decided to draw the battle line......me vs the fat. My family has a serious history with cancer, diabetes and hypertension. I do not want to volunteer myself to a disease just because of my unhealthy habits. I truly believe that a healthier lifestyle can result in a long life. Not to mention I do not what the pharmaceutical companies making money behind my back. I am determined to win, I know it will be hard, temptation will be at every hand but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! This is going to be a true journal... no holds barred... the truth will be told.

Name: Black Doll
Weight: 215.8lbs
Height: 5'6
Heaviest Weight: 224lbs

Goal: I would like to lose 74lbs by Jan 30th, 2010 and get off the blood pressure medication.

Plan: Work Out 5-6 times a week, eat every 2-3 hours, drink 8 glasses of water, portion control and healthy snack.

Please tune in tomorrow.. I will be uploading current pics and documenting my food and emotional journal.

PS: This saying was on my inspirational calender today and it was so fitting that I thought I would share it.

Your commitment to continual improvement puts you one step closer to your potential. And you'll also find that what you get as the result of your growth is not nearly as important as what you become along the way,