Update

I have been extremely busy lately and I have not posted as frequently as normal. Well let me squeeze it all in one post. Well first of all I am still working out but as my schedule gets crazy I am not working out as often. Last week I only worked out three times and my eating habits have slipped a bit. I am still eating healthy during the week but this weekend was a total wash. I ate McDonalds, Churches Chicken, loaded potatoes, crab cakes and other crap. Yes I feel guilty but this weekend was my friend's wedding and I did not want to worry about what I ate. Tomorrow I will be back on the grind trying to lose this weight. I do not want to regret letting my trainer go, so I gotta get more disciplined about my food intake.

Speaking of my friend's wedding I took pictures of the ceremony and some pictures of myself. When I looked at the pictures of myself I was not happy. Although I am losing weight I still look huge in photographs. Sometimes I see pictures of myself and I think......is that me? The pictures look nothing like my mirror image. I hate to admit it but the pictures disgusted me...I hated what I saw. I did not feel beautiful at all. I know it's not good to pick yourself apart but that was the way I felt.

I am good at spending a good amount of money on make-up, hair and clothes. I dress up the outside as much as possible because at times I do not feel confindant about the weight that I carry on my body.

I knew when I starting my weight loss process there would be ups and downs, highs and lows. I know I can be a bit emotional about my weight but I want to be honest and this blog is about sharing this stuggle with the world.

Monday Weigh In

Well it's weigh in time and I gain weight! This week I ate like I had no sense. Sometimes I just want to be a regular person and eat what I want to eat when I want to eat it. Saturday I enjoyed Mexican food that was filled to the brim with fat calories then to top it off I had and XXL mango margarita. On Sunday I ate MacDonald's and an apple pie on the side.

I did not go shopping last week so I ate on the run. Eating on the run is never good for me, it causes me to eat casually and leads to ...........weight gain. I gained a2.5lbs and I am not going to spend time beating myself up. For the most part I only eat chicken and fish but lately even the chicken feels heavy in my digestive system. I ate chicken yesterday and it feels like it's still in my intestinal track. This week I am going to detox. This includes flooding my body with fruits, vegetables and water only. I know this is going to be extremely hard but it has to be done.

BTW I fired the trainer. I still will workout on my own 5-6x a week. But right now I do not like the way he makes overweight women feel about themselves.


Have a happy Monday

Trainer Debate

I have been very busy sorry for not posting daily. Okay here is the dilemma. My trainer gets on my damn nerves. We are having issues because according to his scale I am not losing weight but according to my scale the weight is coming off. My scale says I am at 207... his scale says I am at 212. Now his scale has been saying 212 for about 3 weeks, on the other hand my scale says I am losing the weight. His scale is an electronic scale but is not by no means the best scale one can buy. It's a $12.00 scale from Walmart! My scale is a regular scale (paid $8.00 for it at Walmart) and it works fine. Both scales were synchronized until the 3 weeks ago. I'm not sure what happened but something happen!

I am also a bit upset that he constantly takes about expanding his business during my work out time. I spend 1 hour with home 3-4 days a week and he spends 35 minutes talking. Then he had the gall to tell me that in the contract it says if I don't lose 3lbs a week consistently he can end the contact. I understood this when I took him on has a trainer but this scale issue is causing a BIG problem.


In the past I've lost 30lbs without the help of a trainer. I must admit that it took about 6 months to lose the weight and it came off extra slow......but it did come off.

I think next week may be my last week with the trainer, cause at this point we are simply not getting along.

I'm still eating pretty well, but this week I've had more slip ups that I can count. It's hard eating healthy all the time. My co-workers are constantly bringing in food and I try to stay strong but I do fall prey from time to time.

Check out my pic I am losing weight in my face (yay)