Update

I have been extremely busy lately and I have not posted as frequently as normal. Well let me squeeze it all in one post. Well first of all I am still working out but as my schedule gets crazy I am not working out as often. Last week I only worked out three times and my eating habits have slipped a bit. I am still eating healthy during the week but this weekend was a total wash. I ate McDonalds, Churches Chicken, loaded potatoes, crab cakes and other crap. Yes I feel guilty but this weekend was my friend's wedding and I did not want to worry about what I ate. Tomorrow I will be back on the grind trying to lose this weight. I do not want to regret letting my trainer go, so I gotta get more disciplined about my food intake.

Speaking of my friend's wedding I took pictures of the ceremony and some pictures of myself. When I looked at the pictures of myself I was not happy. Although I am losing weight I still look huge in photographs. Sometimes I see pictures of myself and I think......is that me? The pictures look nothing like my mirror image. I hate to admit it but the pictures disgusted me...I hated what I saw. I did not feel beautiful at all. I know it's not good to pick yourself apart but that was the way I felt.

I am good at spending a good amount of money on make-up, hair and clothes. I dress up the outside as much as possible because at times I do not feel confindant about the weight that I carry on my body.

I knew when I starting my weight loss process there would be ups and downs, highs and lows. I know I can be a bit emotional about my weight but I want to be honest and this blog is about sharing this stuggle with the world.